Well that snuck up unbelievably fast!
Oh Daisy girl what a beautiful little being you are, I can honestly say it’s been the best 5 months ever! Who knew I had this big place in my heart for another little bubba.
You’ve grown like crazy and to me you seem much more ‘advanced’ than what your brother was at this age.
I just looked back on posts from when Sonny was around 5 months and it blows me away seeing the difference of how I was as a parent to how I am now. I feel like I am so much more trusting in myself and my choices this time around. I never second guess if what I’m doing is the ‘right’ or ‘wrong’ thing to do, I just parent with my heart and everything else seems to fall into place.
Ever since you were 2 weeks old you’ve been so alert and checking out everything that comes in your view. You’re rolling, trying to sit and when you’re on your tummy you’re going in circles, I’m going to have to keep an eye on you because any day now you’ll be off.
You’re a boobie monster, you would feed all day if I let you but the thought that starting solids is creeping up so quickly is freaking me out!!
You’re madly in love with your brother, even when he roughs you up. It seems in your eyes he can do no wrong. He loves you too, he’s just learning how to share and show his feelings, he’ll get there. He also doesn’t know his strength so hugs soon turn to him almost crushing you..sigh! I was so scared somedays when pregnant that he would just not cope with sharing me and my love, but he is fine and maybe it’s because you’ve just been so super awesome and chill.
You’ve made my knees go weak with that beautiful smile. Your whole face lights up and you look so cheeky. You make strangers gush and laugh with that funny smile.
I can’t believe your ours, you fit so perfectly in our family I don’t remember what it was like without you.
Do you have a story you’d like to share about you or your family?
Beautiful pictures you’d like to show off?
A business you’d like to get out there?
I’m looking to start featuring inspiring mothers and people on my blog regularly. I used to have the privilege of interviewing people I thought were awesome on a blog a while ago and am looking to start again as it’s always so wonderful to connect with different people, hear their stories and get let into their life a little.
I’m also very open to honest and hard stories. Being a mother isn’t always the easiest job and it’s something that can throw your life out of wack from time to time, so if you have an experience you’d like to share that isn’t necessarily the glamourous fun side of motherhood but don’t want to put your name to then feel free not to put a name to it at all. Chances are if you’ve ever felt a certain way there are many others that have as well.
If you’d like to share anything with us please send an email to firstname.lastname@example.org and we can talk more there :)
Look forward to hearing from you !
Your skin untouched, your first big breath,
the sound of your first cry
That moment I first held you close
and looked into your eye
It felt like forever to get to here,
waiting, counting every day
In this perfect euphoric moment,
with you I want to stay
I’ve never felt this love before,
how am I still alive?
A heart just left my body
now it lives on the outside
You’re the everything now in my world
- Jesska Trueman
Imagine this as pie charts -
There’s one of you, you are free, you can give yourself as much time as you like. You’re a whole circle of me, 100%. Then you fall in love, it’s beautiful and you want to share your life with this person, so you do, and you can share as much of yourself with this other person as you both want. It can be 50/50 or 60% 40%, up to you.
Then you have a baby and this baby gets majority of your time now as it’s a newborn and needs it’s mother to survive. As your baby grows it needs different amounts of your time for different learning, but that first year is about 80% baby, then a toss up between the other 20% for you and your partner. You start to have less and less time for yourself.
Then you have another baby, and then there is less time for your other child, your partner and you. Your first child still gets you but only about half because you have to give more of yourself now.
So the pie chart is now almost if not full of children and then you’re left fighting for any percentages for your partner and yourself. It’s exhausting!
This is the only way I could describe some feelings of late to my husband and close friends. There’s a constant imbalance at the moment, because I want to be a whole of something for everyone. 100% mother to both my children, 100% wife to my husband and I’m happy to just say 50% or more to just being me. Becoming a mother is about putting your children first and that’s something that takes almost no time to come to terms with, as the pregnancy naturally starts to slow you and your ‘old’ 100% me way of life down.
Every so often you stumble into those weeks where you’re day dreaming of all the time you used to have and wondering what on earth you were doing and how much you’d just like a day to feel bored and spend time on yourself or be 100% with your partner. Ahh the dream!
Of course I wouldn’t change this life for the world and it’s just one of those feelings that come around every so often…then you start to understand the positives of cloning!
I just want to be my 100% for us all. I cannot wait for the time to come when I can just spend a day with my son, the little man has been awesome through this whole big brother, sharing mum gig and I cannot wait to give him my undivided, breast feeding free attention…I’m sure the day will come!! And to my husband, the most patient man with me, I am thankful. He unfortunately is at the end of the line along with my ‘me time’ in all of this and he is so accepting of me being the type of mother I want to be.
That’s my thoughts on this week but I’m ready to start fresh tomorrow. Just had to blurt that all out and get it off my milky chest.
One day we’ll all have a bit more % on my imaginary pie chart I’m sure.